My thoughts are with you  / Shirley Franklin (passer by )
Hi what a beautiful tribute to your son ,I too lost my son who was also called Matthew he was 23 and it was 2004. It brought tears to my eyes reading the beautiful things that you wrote about him best wishes and god bless you Shirley (Matthew franklins mum )xxxx Close

Christmas without you  / Mom (Mother)

I guess I didn't really understand the meaning of shock until now. Thinking back to this time last year and I can barely even remember the days or the events. I couldn't even begin to tell you what I bought or didn't buy for any one. I just went through the motions without even knowing or caring or remembering. Today I realize that was the grand stage of shock that every one was talking about. Stage 1: Shock the body's way of protecting the mind; a total numb wall that surrounds the brain preventing and outer body explosion. Stage 2: REALITY the body’s way of forcing the brain to now face the pain. A loud silent scream from the brain that only you can hear. And explosion of the mind forced inward. Pain full of so much force that you wish you were dead but your left with no choice but to live, or to at least to pretend. I fear stage 3 I don't at this point even know what it is and don't want to know. I just pray every day that I'm able to make it through the next day, shit the next hour, the next minute. Living without you Matthew is as bad as life could ever be. I really really hate it. To breathe with a broken heart is a terrible way to be forced to live. This is your mom's life now a shattered broken mess. Reality is killing me. I miss you baby and I love you so much.

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Matt Matts Angelversary  / Alyssa Devito (Tylers sister )
Matt, I hope you and my brother are up there having a great time in heaven we miss you so much it breaks each and everyone of our hearts to know that both of you are gone. Watch over carol and jen they need you so much right now. I know how it feels to have lost my brother and it hurt so bad all i wanted was for him to be there hugging me and comforting me and i hope you are doing that for jen. She loved you so much and continues to do so the way she talked about you made me remember how close me and my brother were and for us it was a beautiful blessing to have brothers as great as you both were. I hope paradise is as beautiful as I imagine and as my brother has told me.  Dont ever stop leaving them signs for that is all they have to hold onto their hope of seeing you again someday. Well to cut this short I hope your well and looking over your family. We love you matthew And we will be seeing you again someday<3 Close

Matt Matts Angelversary  / Alyssa Devito (Tylers sister )
Matt, I hope you and my brother are up there having a great time in heaven we miss you so much it breaks each and everyone of our hearts to know that both of you are gone. Watch over carol and jen they need you so much right now. I know how it feels to have lost my brother and it hurt so bad all i wanted was for him to be there hugging me and comforting me and i hope you are doing that for jen. She loved you so much and continues to do so the way she talked about you made me remember how close me and my brother were and for us it was a beautiful blessing to have brothers as great as you both were. I hope paradise is as beautiful as I imagine and as my brother has told me.  Dont ever stop leaving them signs for that is all they have to hold onto their hope of seeing you again someday. Well to cut this short I hope your well and looking over your family. We love you matthew And we will be seeing you again someday<3 Close

Thinking of you Matthew.  / Beverly Brown (Thomas Allen) (Visitor)

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THINKING OF YOU  / Kyle Geesler (none)
Dear Carol,
        I AM SENDING YOU MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ON THIS DAY. i AM A FRIEND OF MARLA'S AND I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR SON MATTHEW. HE WAS A VERY HANDSOME YOUNG MAN AND I AM THINKING ABOUT YOU. Close